10-1=9
9 more weeks
i'm not a GEPer
and i never will be
Quote of the week:humans are like a complete circle rolling down a hill. You go so fast that you cant stop and appreciate the things around you -neglecting your family, friends and the things around you. If we had a dent, we stop and look around, realising how much we lost. By then, others would have gone ahead of you, impossible to catch up. So does that mean that to stay ahead, we can never take a break? i wonder......
updates later. hw first.......
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I feel so disappointed in myself, simple hw which can take like at most 3h to finish, i take like a whole day. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. LIKE WHY CANT I JUST BLOODY HELL FINISH THIS SCREWED UP HW IN 3H. WHAT IS WRONG. AM I THAT STUPID! NO. BUT WHY?
The little comments that classmates make can really make me feel stupid. ryan tia said " i finish my english individual assignment in 45 min" then, i was stuck with mine for 3 days. Like stupid Rui Xiang cant even finish his english individual assignment.
I hate this shit. I hate thinking that i'm stupid. I hate dreading ncc cause i really want to like it. I hate all these fucking obstacles in my life. I will really need a counselling session too.
Gepers are pissing me off big time. I want to excel in ncc. But this mental block may be stopping me. I'm competing with 26 other people, most of them are GEPers. How pathetic is that. How pathetic am i?
I was thinking, would it be better if i try to have as much time as possible now when i can, or should i push myself to the limit, taking merit ccas and all those shit. But the answer is obviously obvious. Its not oblivious to the surrounding.....
Crap me. Lol. Me and my sis have same feelings, we are both feeling down now. It runs in the veins. Sigh........ i hate this shit. i hate the way i am in school. i hate alot of screwed up things. I hate the way our chi teacher say that our standard is low. I hate the way my classmates behave in class. Oh i should tell you
There are quite some trouble makers in our class. I doubt i will say them out. Then there are some lamers in the class and lastly there are some people who think they can shout. [but apparently, they cant, or not as well as me. cause (time to boost my ego. i consider my shouting quite loud ^.^. And that is something i'm proud of. of course not as loud as the sec 4s in ncc lar. duh. but loud enough to be considered good)] So apparently, when the class is noisy, probably caused by those trouble makers, the WHOLE class will be noisy. Then the teachers like cant handle the class.
3 things can happen:
1: I shout at the class, they stop
2: I shout, they ignore, shout again.
3: *i hate this the most* the-people-who-THINK-they-can-shout shout, but apparently and obviously, they cant stop the noise, then everybody will start shouting. Then dear Rui Xiang here comes to the rescue (another ego boost *.* HAHAHA) And i have to shout like at 80% of my voice and the whole class will shut up and everyone will look at me. HAHAHA. z.z those ppl who think they can shout.......z.z gay kiang...... so anyway, i am proud of my volume teeehee.
So back to the point. SCHOOL SUCKS. I'm not saying the school sucks. I'm saying MY LIFE in SCHOOL SUCKS :DD. So i am not affecting the school's reputation in any way. Well wish me luck in ncc tmr. Rui Xiang, you can do it :DDD. Dont let your seniors push you down. Cause they shouldnt
I never believed in the phrase 'tomorrow will be better', cause tomorrow is never better for me.
I love the quote of the week, discovered by ME (the 3rd ego boost) :DDD
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