Do you ever feel like breaking down? (yes)
Do you ever feel out of place? (yes)
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway? (sometimes)
Do you lock yourself in your room? (yes)
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else? (yes)
Are you sick of feeling so left out? (yes)
Are you desperate to find something more? (yes)
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate? (yes)
Are you sick of everyone around? (yes)
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like,what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
This is one of those songs which i can really relate to, Welcome to My Life
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Sigh i was fricking piss today like 8h ago. Stupid loser, why the hell did you tell it to me and not to person D. Why the hell do you expect so much from us, ordering us around as though we are your slaves. Why the hell does our group has to be first, who gives a damn. Why do YOU want to be first. Fricking asshole. Seriously i was damn damn piss at you. And screw it, tmr there's school. I realise i dont say much about what happen during school. So might as well start from the start.
After orientation camp, our PSLs never even came ONCE to say hello, actually they did once, but that was because the teachers told them to come to elect CEC members. Yup that was the only time they came. One and Only. Look at other classes, 1M, 1Q, 1B, 1E..... They all have PSLs at least visiting them TWICE. Yes and look at ours, everyday you step into class, there's no seniors there. Thats why our class was independant, No PSLs, never mind, we can be independant ourselves. So thats why our class was already alright after the first month.
Yeah, i'm glad that i'm not in 1F, the people there are super prevetic, everytime during morning assembly, when the national anthem is being played, there will be two boys from 1F in front of me touching each other *GROSS*
After that projects came piling in and i really mean PILING. Like we had 4/5 projects in a week. I was damn pressurized. Then it was screwed. What made it worse, the realisation that i was in NCC. Haha, the day i got the CCA result was the one and only day i went J8 for lunch with ryan chua. haha. So now its pretty alright i guess, just the i am usually tired after CCAs, there's a small part of me inside that regretted not appealing for guitar. I mean seriously man, guitar is SO SLACK, they only have 4h of trainings in an air-con room per week. But NCC will be good for me, or so i hope....
TA, CCT, adds on to my stress, CCT maths was screwed i think. I dont even think i can reach the class standard THAT I SET of 24/30. Some people leave questions blank! Next week have history CCT, or thats what Mr Lee told us. Quite a few people dont like history, i mean come on after Mr Lee sprung a surprise test, who wouldnt. The week after that, MT CCT. LIKE WTH, Mt and i seriously haven study, thats what i plan to do today. haha. You know i tell you guys that life is not about grades, but here i am, complaining about studies. Well i guess that counsellors cant counsel themselves, not that i say i am one *snorts*, but i give advice to other people but i cant give advice to myself. I feel like seeing a counsellor. haha.
So yup, thats all for school for now. But i still hate school, dont say i never try to like it, i did, but it failed. Haha. Its very easy to belittle yourself in my school. I mean all you have to say is "You're not in a GEP class, your absence in the school wont make a difference" and down goes your motivation.
Today is MISS LIM'S BIRTHDAY. And from what chrystal said, its also DANIEL's birthday.
So happy birthday to both of you! HAHA. I really need to study now. CYA guys, this post gonna be here until next week. HAHA
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