Anger Management
I know i'm not suppose to blog now. But yeah, since i'm procrastinating, might as well procrastinate just a bit more to blog. So yeah. The 1st person i chatted with was yash, cause i need to have like 8 more comments for that damn survey. So yeah.The convo eventually turned into a moral convo with me -in a more harsh tone- lecturing yash about being satisfied and stop complaining that he didnt get 4.0 geog which is the only subject he didnt get 4.0 but 3.6 is still good right?
Then i went kinda piss. Cause its like HELLO. LOOK AT ME. COMPARE WITH ME LAR. LOOK AT MY SCREWED UP MARKS. AND COMPARE THEM WITH URS. AND THERE YOU ARE STILL COMPLAINING THAT YOU DIDNT GET 4.0. So yeah i got pissed then i started scolded him, but not that bad lar. Then he was like i didnt study for geog. Then i flared up all over again.
i shall tell you something
THAT'S WHAT EVERY ONE SAIS
I DIDNT STUDY
Yash! says:
yupp???
Rui Xiang [09/10/2023] Open ur damn ears and listen properly to what i'm saying, i'm gonna explain only once now. says:
THEN YOU LOOK AT THEIR FUCKING MARKS
FULL MARKS
LIKE
THIS IS HOW I SEE IT
WHEN PEOPLE SAY "I DIDNT STUDY"
ITS JUST A QUOTE TO DEMORALISE YOU
Yash! says:
so sorry
sorry
sorry
i didn't know i can get on ppl's nerves
sorry
sorry
Rui Xiang [09/10/2023] Open ur damn ears and listen properly to what i'm saying, i'm gonna explain only once now. says:
so its like
when people say it
it like
telling you
hey since he didnt study
why must i study too
but its just that
people did study
just that
they just dont want you to study
Yash! says:
Rui Xiang [09/10/2023] Open ur damn ears and listen properly to what i'm saying, i'm gonna explain only once now. says:
no need to apologise
its my fault too
So yeah. I'm a bad person. I flared up at zhan now. ARGH WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. But why i flared up with him. Cause he was being -harsh term- stubborn. He wanted to like anyhow do that damn quiz that caused me so much problem. So i was like pleading with him not to do that. Just give me ur comments. Then he go submit. So i just flared up lar. And i directly cross the convo.
Sorry zhan. I have no idea whats up with me.
Life was good yesterday, and now it turned bad. ARGH.
SCREW IT LAR
I'm having serious mood swings. First i was angry then sad now i'm angry again. ARGH WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! WHAT IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ME LAR. I'M TOTALLY FED UP, SCREWED UP AND FUCKED UP. WHAT IS THE LIFE IP SCHOOLS ARE GIVING US.
I think i will never be a prefect. Neither do i want to be one. I will probably screw the whole screw up with my language.
If i continue thinking like this, i will probably turn sucidal one of these days.
Typical boys behaviour - appearing strong outside, being weak inside.
THE END